Co-dependency by Stasiowski

Co-dependency is easier to fall into than some might think. If you play your cards straight from the beginning it's fairly easy to have a healthy relationship. I think of unhealthy relationships as a cascading effect that expounds on itself. It starts with disharmony between two people. It really could be anything.

Let's say boy meets girl. They have differing personalities and he can't exhibit his strong points ([because] she overlooks them or is not interested in those particular traits) and thusly he spins off into a negative state. He takes on a purely beta state and this exponentially emasculates him. He can't climb out of it, he internalizes this and becomes bitter. Resentful towards his partner he attributes his misery to her. Any outward action from her outside of the relationship is detrimental and perceived by him as betrayal and disloyalty. He has lost his alpha and cant keep her at bay, so he grows increasingly worried and upset, constantly fussing at her. The love is lost, it's more of a desperate melody, just a desperate attempt and maintaining his masculinity through the partner by commanding her presence.

Now, I've only outlined the catalyst for the males side of co-dependency. People's perspective of who should be alpha and beta whether male or female in a relationship differs with opinion but I believe there need be one subservient and one leader. Either can work, but I don't think 2 betas will last. But still, subject to differing opinions.

Co-dependency and remedying this; hm, let's just say when you go skydiving, it looks and seems like a great idea, but jumping out is terrifying. What happens if the shoot doesn't work, what if something goes wrong, what if you don't make it back to the ground, what if you die?!

These are all very real thoughts a co-dependent individual may encounter when speculating a breakup. Intellectualizing the severance from a codependent relationship will deliver you no further into liberation than sitting in a plane and refusing to jump out will put you back on the ground. Don't think about it, bc the rationalization will talk you out of it, you'll bargain with yourself for more time, or a lesser penalty by making a different decision. Just jump, plus, it's fun on the way down, and when the adrenaline settles, you'll have a fantastic story to tell that is sure to grab the attention of many people.

Co-dependency cultivates within itself, as does independence.

-Wise Words by Stephen Stasiowski.

Why I Love or Hate Religion

One of the latest viral videos to hit the scene is called "Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus." It seems like this is the first time in a long time that Christian has found some pretty significant play in the mainstream of YouTube. The video itself--in my opinion--could have been done better as far as aesthetics are concerned, but I believe that this guys message is pretty dead on with the same census as the typical modern day non-denominational church: Religion is bad; Jesus is good. Check out the video below.
Sine the rising popularity of this video plenty of responses from many YouTube(rs) have risen up, but one in particular has struck my fancy. It's a video performed by a man named Fr. Pontifex entitled "Why I love Religion, And Love Jesus." Fr. Pontifex bring a contradiction toward the words of the previous video. He talks about the importance of the church, and why religion is what Jesus brought. See the video below
I believe that this argument is one that is a very valid one in the church today. Quite often the issue is only recognized from a one sided argument, and never heard in a true debate. I think that both of these men make awesome points.
Religion has created the standards that have cause the world to hate the church.
Religion has made a way for the church to grow in the way that it has.
Those are both two very big aspects about the church that we just cannot ignore. However, the argument--like most debates--can go on for days, so I will leave you with a video that I first saw a few months ago that really set the stage for me with all of this Christian spoke word. This is the original spoke word video.

Houston Half Marathon

Tomorrow is the Houston marathon, and I will be running half of it. A lot of the past year has been hanging on this moment; I'm nervous and excited--happy and sad.
There is much more at hand here--you see.
He's going to be there. I'm going to see him for the first time in a long time. Part of me misses my friend, and the other part doesn't want to see him ever again.

I've made an excellent playlist of last years greatest hits; I have four hours to hear them.

I have four hours to see what my body is capable of.

Another Earth

Not too often do I see movies that absolutely blows me away. However, this past weekend I saw a movie that was unforgettably amazing. It’s called Another Earth by director Mike Cahill. It’s a story about a girl named Rhoda—played by Brit Marling—who, after an unforgivable accident while driving drunk, is released from four years in prison; She wins a ticket to a curious new planet that is seen in the sky throughout the movie that is appropriately titled Earth 2.
I highly recommend that this movie be seen, especially if you’re the kind of person who likes thing that are a little out of the ordinary: five bright and shiny stars!
To learn more check out the movies web page here.

Oh Mysterious Woman Lurking Around Atascocita

Since I've been living in Texas, I have met many people. A lot like when I lived in Patterson, Louisiana, I often see people that I know that I know. During this past summer I ran into an encounter with a girl. She works at Best Buy. The night went like this:
I was in Best Buy with my brother, Raymond. From a few isles away I could see her, and our eyes met. We carried on with a non verbal conversation for about three to five minutes saying,
--I know you--
--from where?--
--I don't know--
--Wow that's weird--
--I know--
Once the exchange took place across some fifty feet, we closed in on each other, and had a verbal conversation. We exchange names, and tried to figure out how we new each other; we came to no conclusion. 
The moral of this story is that I saw this woman tonight as I was lurking around Atascocita buying cigarettes. As I walked up to the store front to buy smoke she was walking out. I smiled, and waved at her; she excitedly walked to me with her arms open for a hug. We embraced like old friends do, but we're not old friends. 
It was a very interesting experience, and I look forward to the next time that I see her. What love can come from strangers. The most exciting part about the whole thing is that I may never see her again; tonight could have been the last time. The mystery is the bond between our friendship; what a blessing.

The Flat Earth Society

I absolutely love to hear about what people believe. I've come to know about a group of people with quite the peculiar worldview on the reality around us: The Flat Earth Society.

The name of the group speaks for itself. These people reject the common spherical model of the earth that was first speculated in the 6th century. The gist of what they promote is that the earth is flat; what is commonly known as Antarctica is actually a wall of ice that holds in the water of the oceans; the north pole is the center of the world; and the Sun, Moon, and heavenly bodies circle above us in the firmament.

I don't know exactly how I feel about what these people are saying, but I love the idea. For me is paints a picture of the world that would exist in the writings of Tolkien or perhaps an ancient tale passed down through the tribes of the Native Americans. I very much admire their courage to go against modern day world view.

Check out their website, and stay tuned to a follow up article for more details.

V838 Monocerotis & Nibiru

Back in 2007, while horribly high, I was one of the many who fell into the 2012 end times craze. I bathed my brain in the ideas presented by the conspiracy theorists. Since then I have become a little bit more discerning, but the entertainment value that I find in 2012 junk is still pretty overwhelming--so much that I can get pretty wrapped up in it as if it were the Spice Girls and 1998.
Anyhow, one element of the whole 2012 story is the collision between Earth and Nibiru. Back in 2007, I first saw this image of outer space that was alleged to be an image of the planet Nibiru on it's way to us.
Recently I have run across this same image, but more up to date. I have learned that this beautiful thing is called to NASA as V838 Monocerotis. While searching around the internet I found an awesome time lapsed progression video--that I would like to share--of the anomaly that is quite stunning.

When the Winter Came

When I write songs my mind works in two different ways: music & word.

We build our own constellations here.
In shapes of fawn & man;

All have their own meaning--
All have their own shape.

They tell their own stories,
And follow the light of the highest magnitude.

What kind of story am I telling?
Where is my brightest star
 ~-~
I've learned these two languages over my years of being a human: These two forms of communication

Music is a Circle. Words are a Circle. They can role together on the same axle; They can run holding each other close as they twist together in the fabric of space & time; One can be bigger while the smaller one sits in the center, or rolls along the inside.

The two are separate creatures, and their marriage is a sacred thing among the humans.

Fitting together pieces of the word & pieces of the music is one of the most beautiful things I've ever experienced as human. Oh the things that could be said in our sacred art of communication.
~-~
When the winter came this year It seems as though I wasn't as prepared as I should have been.

I've never seen the forest be quite like this before; It's all part of these lessons we learn I would suppose.  "I feel as though I'm lost at sea within myself again--", I say as I watch me drift away.

Lynn Beckwith & The Break Down Syndrome

 Lynn Beckwith--the owner of Beckwith's Car Care--approached me a few days ago to prepare a handout for a seminar she was to give at the local college. The following is a transcript is what I derived from her notes.

    Vehicles have become one of the biggest parts of the American experience—especially living in Texas—and one of our most significant investments. Because we rely on them so much the last thing that we need is to be broke down on the side of the road. That is why it very important for us to make sure that we are properly maintaining our cars, trucks, and SUVs with regularly scheduled maintenance and service to avoid the break down syndrome.

Reason that cause us to break down most often:
•    Tires – One of the most familiar reasons we’re left on the side of the road is because of the part of the vehicle that sees that road the most: the tires. Making sure that all the tires are inflated with appropriate amount of air pressure is your number one way of taking care of them. It is also important to keep an eye out for any unusual and uneven tire wear. Keep in mind that your spare tire can be just as important as the one on the car at the time of a blow out, so make sure to monitor its pressure as well.
•    No Start – A no start can be a quick start to a bad day. There are many reasons why this happens; it can be anything from a fuel issue—to an electronic failure. However, more often than not one of the top reasons we see a no start is because the battery has died.
•    Cooling System Failure – During the hotter months, your vehicle’s cooling system has to work harder than normal to prevent the engine from overheating. Because of the strain that is put on the system it is possible for the rubber components to deteriorate leading to a leak of coolant, and engine overheating.
•    Engine Running Badly – There are a myriad of complicated reasons that an engine can run bad, and sometimes there is nothing that you can do to prevent them. However, sometimes keeping an engine running smoothly is as simple as keeping a clean air filter in your vehicle.  Like your lungs, your vehicle always needs to have an appropriate amount of clean air going into it in order to keep it from working harder than it should.
•    Fuel Related Issues – Fuel related issues that cause a vehicle to break down are at times cannot be prevented through maintenance, but in order to do what you can it is important to always make sure that the fuel injectors and the throttle body are kept clean from carbon build up. By doing this you can also regulate the vehicle’s fuel economy to that of the manufacture’s standards.

What Can You Do?

    The reality is that no vehicle—regardless of make & model—is indestructible. There will always be brake jobs that will need to be done, and failed starters that need to be replaced. The good news is that there is a lot you can do to make any vehicle out last its life expectancy.
“THE BIG THREE”
•    Fluids – Though it is not realized by every consumer, there are many different fluids in your vehicle that, like your engine oil, should be replaced regularly. These different fluids keep the “hard” parts lubricated to avoid wear; the unfortunate thing is that over time the additive packages within the fluids begin to break down, and can cause damage to their corresponding system as they become corrosive and lose their ability to clean, cool, and lubricate.
It is always important to recognize what type of fluid is to be used in each of the individual systems of your vehicle. By referring to the owner’s manual, you can properly discern the exact specifications that are required.
The trick to keeping up the health of your fluids is to change them while they’re still healthy, and before they begin to degrade. Once fluid has a burned odor or is dirty, damage may have already begun to take place.
That is why is recommended to keep your fluids changed on a regular basis. Standard engine oil should be changed every 3,000 to 5,000 miles, while other fluids like transmission, brake, coolant, power steering, and differential should be replaced every 30,000 miles.
•    Rubber – In the days of the less complicated vehicle, it was not uncommon to carry around a spare drive belt with you at all times. Though rubber components do not fail as often as they used to, it is very wise to have all of these rubber parts inspected regularly.
o    Belts – It is not uncommon find at least two to three belts on a standard vehicle. The most easily recognized belt is the one that is referred to as your drive belt. As the belt ages it can develop cracks and fraying that can lead it to breaking.
        Another very important belt is the one that is out of sight behind the timing cover. This belt that controls the timing between the top and bottom of the motor, and is appropriately called the “timing belt”. Consequently in the event of this belt braking more significant damage can be done to the motor. It is standard that this belt is changed every 100,000 mile.
o    Hoses – The hoses that carry the coolant throughout your engine can often be the culprit involved with overheating issues. As these simple parts begin to fail it is not always visible through observation. Hoses tend to break down from the inside out. When a technician is inspecting your vehicle he may also find that an aged hose is swollen or is crunchy whenever it is squeezed. It is best to always have fresh hoses; if your vehicle is older than six years and still has the original hoses from the manufacturer it is suggested to have them replaced.
o    Tires – Tires tend to be a big investment to put into a vehicle. It is inevitable that they will wear out, but by making sure that they maintain the proper air pressure, are rotated every other oil change, and balanced every other rotation you will be sure to get the most out of your tires.
o    Wipers – This is one of the few components on a vehicle that upon failure will not leave you stranded on the side of the road. However like all the rubber on your vehicle it is important to keep a good set of wiper blades. You will thank yourself on that rainy day.
•    Batteries – Most batteries can be rated to last you as long as five year, but when you live in states like Texas that have hotter than average Summers that rating is reduced rather to about three year. Batteries tend to last 60% longer in colder climates; unfortunately that is not the case for the south!
Driving short distances do not do any justice to your battery because the alternator is not able to completely recharge it. Though long distance driving is not always possible while living in the suburbs, one way to avoid this is to by an automatic battery charger that shuts off when charging is finished. Be careful not to over charge because this could do further damage.
Keeping the terminals clean is another ways to insure the battery’s life. If they are corroded it could lead the battery to running hot, shortening its life.
So there you have it!
By putting into practice these simple steps towards better maintaining you vehicle you can be sure that you will have a more reliable means of transportation, and a better return on your investment.
Happy Driving – That Car Lady!

For more information on Lynn Beckwith and her shop, Beckwith's Car Care, check out her blog That Car Lady.

In the Studio: ODE to Mars

It's one of the first few days of cold weather in Texas. A year ago I was in a pretty inebriated state; It's pretty awesome to be awake during this exciting moment of my life.
Richard and I have just wrapped up a long couple months working on "ODE to Mars"; This song has been pretty difficult to deal with. At the end of "Flamingo Fandango", we were both pretty confident in each others ability to understand what we needed to do next, but that would soon be challenged.
First we started looking into "Out of Aquarius"--decided to wait. Then we went into the direction of "Behind These Eyes", and had awesome success in the developmental phase, but not so much in the recording. Somehow or another we ended up landing on "Mars", and it was there that we began to set up camp all over again. 
"ODE to Mars" was the first song that me and Richard ever met musically over, so it comes by no surprise that--by the grace of the Father--the end product was extremely successful.
We spent the first few weeks of the song playing together live: me on the piano and he on the drums. There we spoke our native languages to each other in the Martian accent. I can't express enough of how well Richard and I are able to communicate to each other via melody and rhythm. I think our connection acoustically in the beginning of the recording was where we really learned about the path that we needed to take with the song. After all, this song has been through many evolutionary changes since it's first incarnation that was presented to me my sophomore year in high school.
I was very new to song writing then, but do to my influences of the time I new that the direction of a concept album was where I wanted to go; I developed a theme called Prayer of the Planets. It was based off of our own solar system--a track for each planet, and the mythical gods that represented them. Needless to say, a few months into the work I killed it. ODE to Mars was one of the few songs that survived my self scrutiny. 
It was a tiny few bar "ditty" that was to be a short interlude into the following track. There wasn't much of a story behind it, but it did have the inflections of war laced into it's ribbons. I recorded the piece on a few occasions, but somewhere along the way it was lost under new phases of writing that needed tending to.
After I returned from Baton Rouge, my music took a swift turn for the better, and I found my way into Constellation BluePrint. It was here that I was approached by an enigmatic-three quarter note-low octave E theme that began to haunt me. Then one night--while strangely inebriated--I met the beast in person: He told me his name was DreamCast & SolarFlare. We fell in love as he sang the narrative that was taking place between me and Jehovah God. 
As our affair took off I gave him a home on Constellation BluePrint where he held some of my most painful emotion in a cradle, but he would not stay; he followed me into The Piscean Transcendence Through the Martian Battle Front. There I learned that it was "ODE to Mars" in disguise all along. The lyrics came forward, and a few of the melodies that I had been working aligned with each other. The song was born.
At that point it was very similar to what me and Richard made it to be today, but in between those times it turned into a vessel of the strong emotions of where I stood with the Lord. A soft blemish of war and pain.  
Richard had big plans for the song, and I was anxious to helping him fulfill them. Richard is a Rock 'n' Roll drummer musically before he is an awesome guitarist; during the development of the track he really showed energy in ways that I saw in our first encounter.
We were soon in the studio laying down the piano. One Sunday before church he asked me if I wanted to hear what he had done on the percussive side of things. I WAS BLOWN AWAY; what he had done was so much more than what we had done in practice. I was pumped. 
After a little synthetics were added, I was to go to Louisiana for the weekend. I wanted to bring it home with me to let everyone hear what I had been doing in the studio. We added a vocal check to the song, but something wasn't right. 
Returning to the studio I learned that the song was on its way to another evolutionary leap, and we felt that rhythmically the lyrics needed to change with a slight variance in melody. I kept an instrumental version of the song in my car with me, so that I could work on changing things up. This was probably the most difficult part of he whole gig, but like I've mentioned Richard is an excellent director & secondary ear. His guidance for me vocally has been one of the things that I'm most thankful for in making this record. 
We finished laying everything down last Tuesday, and I can't believe what the song has grown into. We're two down, and there are seven more songs to go. I can't wait to share all of this with everyone because you see,
my God;
he gave me this gun...

Decoding the Unknown Cipher of a Dead Man: Ricky McCormick

Ricky McCormick's story is one shrouded in great mystery. In 1999 his body was found some 15 miles away from his residence; No reason for death could be determined, and homicide was ruled out. Knowing that, it is quite a typical case of the standard American dead body, but the queer fact about the situation is actually what was in his pockets at the time: two note ciphered notes written by McCormick himself.
At the time of McCormick's death the notes--thought to be written three days before his death--were never mentioned to the media; However, Twelve years later in an attempt to bring the mystery to an end the FBI has released the ciphers to the media in the hopes that a fresh set of eyes could figure out what they and there team of professionals might mean.
Since the cipher's publication the FBI has received more than enough responses to there plea. They have asked that they no longer receive calls or emails, but that all possible answers to McCormick's riddle be directed to the website dedicated to his ciphers.
I encourage everyone to take a stab at it. I am curious to know what they say, and if they have anything to do with his death at all. For all we know the notes could be his grocery list or lyrics to a song that he likes. According to McCormick's family, he'd been writing in code since he was young, but no one could ever decipher it.
Good Luck!

Is the Gospel of Christ in the Zodiac?

Back in 2007 when I began my search that inevitably led me to Jesus Christ, I learned of many things. Most conservative views of Christianity--or modern ones even--would not see the means of which I was brought to the Lord proper, or a means in which to lead another towards salvation.
I learned of many things in these early times of my faith. The Gospel of Mary Magdalene, New Age, a countless nights of reading everything the internet would tell me about 2012. One thing I found stuck with me to this day and still affirms my faith is the Precession of the Equinoxes. Most of us have been exposed to precession--whether you've been going to college, you've seen Zeitgeist, or you've been keeping up with the latest 2012 prophecy. However if you're unfamiliar, a great explanation can be found here.
What really drew me into the whole concept of precession was its correlation with the church, and the symbolic parallels with Biblical symbolism & allegory that show themselves evident. I found the evidence that I needed to proceed in the faith. 
Since then, I have grown into the Christian I am today, and with a personal relationship with the Lord there is not a need for extracurricular resources outside of the church & the scriptures themselves anymore. However quite often, in my thought processes, I am reminded of the beauty of a magnificent creator who foretold his ultimate story in the pin pricks of light in the night sky... but is this exactly so?
The basis of which the idea was first presented to me was from a book that my mother gave me in either late 2007 or early 2008. It is entitle The Real Meaning of the Zodiac by D. James Kennedy and Nancy Britt. I read through the very beginning of the book, and then skimmed the rest--which, by most standards, is not the most scholarly way of adopting a theory that a piece of literature presents. Knowing that there was a publishing in favor of the subject was enough for me to accept it as sound doctrine. Later I found that the book was based on an earlier writing called Witness in the Stars by E. W. Bullinger.
Now that I'm of a sober mind & more firm in my faith in Jesus Christ, I have come to question my initial theories, and have read a few accounts of the illegitimacy of the the theory. Today I have purchased an electronic copy of Witness in the Stars, and this time I plan to actually read what it is I so thoroughly believe. I have a lot of standing questions that I would like at least some insight on:
Is it not true that the ALL things have been created by the Father, and that it is the enemy who makes them counterfeit?
What is to be said in regards to the Biblical covenant changes that have occurred in tandem to the astronomical age shifts, and the Churches phenomenal response to them?
How can the said relationship of the Gospel and Zodiac be ruled out completely due to Biblical warnings of astrology with out further ruling out the astronomical involvement of Christ's birth and death?
With that said so begins my new investigation of one of my favorite topics.

Captain Planet: The Movie

Seems like every day there is a new Hollywood Production that is recreating the oldies and goodies from the past. Within the past few months I have learned that a new remake is upon us: Captain Planet.

After doing a little research on the web I have found that back in 1997 the idea was thrown around to make the movie in a post-apocalyptic setting. Personally I think that would be pretty awesome, unfortunately the concept didn't make it very far. Hopefully we're in for some awesome CGI and a bunch of cheesy one-liners about saving the planet. I think it would be awesome for the this generation to experience the power of earth, fire, wind, water, and heart. Looks like right now everything is still being developed, so hopefully we'll get to hear something soon.

Depression


I never know when I’m becoming depressed I only realize it when I’ve been in it for a few days. It usually last for a few days at a time.

Sometimes I can just be legitimately sad or upset about something. In reference to what happened about three weeks ago that was completely based off of circumstance.

What’s going on right now though is completely different.

Depression is a pain that is bigger than emotion. It uses emotion to feed itself or maybe more like as a host. It seats itself around idea and concepts and speeds my insecurities into over drive. The part that leads me to believe that it is beyond me just being sad is that I know when it leaves.

When it leaves I can still be sad (or happy) and I can still experience the circumstances that make me upset, but the intensity is not there.

I feel depression in my very being of existence: my body, my heart, my soul… the core of myself. It’s a pain.

It’s not the same as sadness, upset-ness, anger, or any other kind of negative emotion. I think because the word “depression” can be associated with those emotions that people automatically assume that it is something as basic as emotions, but I know that not to be true. People have often said to me (especially in the church) that we have to choose to be happy or sad. Though I believe that to be true, I don’t think that this is an area where that concept applies.

I wonder if it really is a chemical problem in my head.
I wonder if it is part of the spiritual war fare that takes place every day.

It leads me to isolation and lots of sleep.

Sometimes I think it has something to do with the season’s change or the Lunar cycles; other times I have no evidence to support that reasoning. Sometimes I believe that I’m being possessed by a demon; other times I think that I’m just feeling down.

I never really know that I’ve experienced it until I’m at the peak of it. That when I’m usually aware of it enough that I can notice it decreasing. That’s where I’m at right now. It’s going to be gone soon--as long as it follows the standard pattern it always has.

It’s been very bad before… and due to the circumstances of the times I had become suicidal.

I’ve been like this since before you knew me.  Since I can remember this has always been part of my life. I celebrate it in the fact that it has in part fueled my artistic striving.

I refuse to be medicated.

I accept this as part of life really. This is one of the things in my life that not everyone gets to feel, so I will count it as a trip to the grand canyon and back in the mean time. I go places that few people get to go…

Louisiana: They're Trying to Wash Us Away

This weekend I will be off to Louisiana; I haven't been to my native land in since this past December.

It was last December while on the long I-10 drive that I made the commitment to the Lord and myself that I was done with drugs. I had a really bad episode that Christmas Eve day. I can remember the sounds I heard and the way that I felt; the wind was cold blowing through the open windows and sunroof. I remember the fear I had as the chemicals raced through my body: the tingle as though my body was a sleep.

That was the truth actually; I was asleep, and that day I finally woke up.
I will do my usual tour of the Louisiana coast and Highway 90. My first stop will be in Calumet: there I will see my father, grandmother, and Aunt Trudi. Continuing East I will next go through Patterson where all of my emotions and memories will begin to flood back into reality. It will be a Friday night: there should be a foot ball game going on at the high school. I think I'll pass by just so I can smell the air.
I'll probably go see Sam and then Becky before carrying on to Morgan City where I'm to have dinner with my dear friend Chase at Tampico's. It will be great to catch up with him, and do a little people watching. I will end the Friday evening at my sister Jennifer's house in Lake Side where I'll be sleeping for the night. She and I always have such a good time together. I can't wait to see her face again. She always reminds me of the value of family.
The following Saturday I will leave in the morning headed West through the Tri-City area. I stop again in Patterson, and visit the Rebardi family and Ms Linda, the woman responsible for my indoctrination. The last stop of the trip will be in Calumet. I'll see my grandmother one last time, and then... I'm getting the Hell out of there.
Returning to the Forest has always been a hard thing. The emotions have always been so mixed with the bittersweet taste of my childhood and of my high school days. So much of the life that I hate to look back on is rooted in this place.
There is also a fear of returning. The Forest is a deep dark place where danger lurks. I know where to find my ancient demons, and if I'm not careful they will find me. That's why I keep the trip short. There is no time to stand still when you're standing in the high way.
...They're trying to wash us away

After Hours Cafe

"For all you broken hearted lovers lost: go find another one." -Vanessa Carlton

I'm sitting here at a Starbucks. The cafe is closed, but I've come to know that this is really one of my favorite places. Here I've come to go through the thoughts in my head, take a break from life, and talk to the Father.

I'm writing these words in the spur of this very moment. This is something that I often found myself doing in high school whenever I would stay up in the very late hours of the night. Usually this behavior is taken to my written books where things are slightly more personal and intimate. There I'm bound by the speed of my hand writing, the ink of the pen, and the space on the page. Here, I can ramble on as long as I please.

"You can take me on a cheap vacation; I don't want to have expectations because you could be the death of me." -Vanessa Carlton

To update you all on what's been going on: I'm currently in an interview with an artist that I respect very much, and I can't wait to introduce her to the reader.

In the studio we're moving at a rather slow pace, but every moment so far has been great. I will let everyone know about the track as soon as Richard and I have finished. I'm very excited about this record, and I can't wait to start sharing the music with everyone. As we come close to the end of the whole project I will be letting the songs out to the public.

Work has been exceptionally busy. As you can tell from the previous posting, I've been doing a lot of market events, and networking for the company over the past month. It's been very overwhelming, but at the same time very exciting and rewarding.

I'll be running a half marathon in January. I'm up to seven miles our of slightly over thirteen. Recently I've come to know that my foot is not in the best shape for running. Everyone has been telling me that I need new shoes. My hope is that everyone is right. Looks like by this coming weekend new kicks will be in my budget!

I have a broken tooth in my mouth right now, and I can't wait to have it replaced.

I went to the piano store the other day; It was a Steinway dealer. I believe that I'll be looking into purchasing a Boston in the future: perhaps the distant future.

The Father is showing me things. I think it's a garden... I'm pretty sure it's a garden... I don't want to talk about it too much.

I can't wait to finish this record. I can see why people stay in the studio for so long before a record is fisnished.

I've rambled for a long while now.

Love to the Reader. I hope you enjoy this intangible existence...

Vole' T

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