I Have to Remember II

As I was coming to this screen to type these words, I thought about what I wanted to say. What kept coming to mind was, “I have to remember”. I knew that I was wrote something about that recently, but I couldn’t help but believe there was something else that was written since then.

Either Way.

I have to remember that my call was something greater than just to be a musician. I have to remember that I wasn’t called to be the greatest singer. I have to remember that I wasn’t called to be the greatest piano player—that I wasn’t supposed to alway express the most sweet-delicious-luscious harmonies that would make some of my favorite artists say, “That guy knows what he’s doing!”.

“…To be a minstrel in the courts of the Most High…” a Levite of sorts. I am to accurately and passionately declare the Gospel. It just so happens to be that my medium is music. Regardless of how I spin the record, write the words, or reharmonize the chord, it will always come back to the Gospel.

You Should Forgive God

I think it’s important to note that the idea of “forgiving God” is heresy. 

The Christian God, Jesus, and the Holy Sprit are at no time in history at fault. This is in direct contrast to humanity, which has been in and at fault since the fall.

I was made aware of the idea that “…we should forgive God…” about a year ago. It suggests that humans should “forgive God” for the negative circumstances that he has put us though in our lives—e. g.,  growing up poor, being sexual abused, having bad parents, or anything else that would dramatically shape a person in a negative way—therefore, cause them to hold resentment towards God.

There is absolutely no Biblical ground for this concept. As created and fallen creatures, we are unable to pardon lest God himself pardon us. To suggest forgiving God brings into the questions his goodness and righteousness, let alone his ownership of creation and the grace offered by Jesus’ death and resurrection.

 A proper response to any resentment towards God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit is unequivocally our surrender to him. We must first recognize that we have been in rebellion against Him and His law.

 I believe whoever came up with the idea of “forgiving God” probably intended for it to soften the blow of my previous statement; however, it heretically assumes that God is somehow at fault.

 I will offer this anecdote. He is a good God who has loved and taken care of me my entire life. He is all-powerful, slow to anger, and capable of dealing with any problem that I might have with him. He gently corrects his children in love, and guides them to proper understanding of his character.

Easter

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Today is Resurrection Sunday, and as I wander the halls of this high school—waiting for the next service of church to start—I recall where I was ten years ago. I’d only been in Humble for about a month, and I had just landed a job at a high end auto-repair facility. A child.

I believe that my life was changed because of  Jesus’ resurrection, though It’s hard to say at what point this occurred. My whole life has been tied back to the sacred legend of the Ancient of Days.

He continues to change me, grow me, and promote me. By the end of it I hope to be found as a man of God free of addiction and a broken self-image.

Regardless of what happens, “...I could sing of your love forever.” 

 

Sunday Morning

I got to play at two churches this weekend. I love serving the Lords people in music: young and old. 

West Lake Church

West Lake Church

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.”

‭‭Galatians‬ ‭5:22-24‬ ‭ESV‬‬

http://bible.com/59/gal.5.22-24.esv

Golden Acres Baptist Church

Golden Acres Baptist Church

“On that day, when evening had come, he said to them, "Let us go across to the other side." And leaving the crowd, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. And other boats were with him. And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breaking into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?" And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Peace! Be still!" And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, "Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?" And they were filled with great fear and said to one another, "Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?"”

‭‭Mark‬ ‭4:35-41‬ ‭ESV‬‬

http://bible.com/59/mrk.4.35-41.esv

 

...also I got to hang out with this lady :) 

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West Lake Church

I played for West Lake Church today in Summerwood. 

 http://westlakechurchonline.com/

Psalm 92

 “It is good to give thanks to the Lord, to sing praises to your name, O Most High; to declare your steadfast love in the morning, and your faithfulness by night, to the music of the lute and the harp, to the melody of the lyre. For you, O Lord, have made me glad by your work; at the works of your hands I sing for joy.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭92:1-4‬ ‭ESV‬‬

http://bible.com/59/psa.92.1-4.esv

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his precipice

a man on a ledge; of his precipice.  

a man on a ledge; of his precipice.  

I believe I'm nothing good for YHWH. 
I believe that I'm not enough for YHWH.
I believe that I have forsaken him for the pomegranates of my enemy.
I believe that Jesus is who he says he is: YHWH

I don't care about the Trinity or oneness.
I don't care about cessationism or charisma.  
I don't care about Osteen or Washer.
I don't care about KJV or ESV

Jesus has to be enough.
Only he can protect me from the death I know I justly deserve.
I have no merit on my own,
I am powerless.

 

 

Behind Words & Music: a Conversation

The latest release from This Intangible Existence, Words & Music, is a compilation album of the artist's previously released remastered original compositions. Terrell Brinlee, the man behind the act, sat down and answered a few questions.

Why did you want to do a compilation album?

“I’ve always been in a state of reimagining these works. Whenever I started recording with Billy Hillman back in 2013, I was doing this: making better recordings of previously recorded material. Recording at Hilltrax Studio, I was able to exhaust my repertoire in a way that I’d never done before. That happened over the course of about three years. Whenever I finished That You Are Mindful of Him, I knew that I wanted to give these songs another shot, and a new sequence to exist in--a final form.”

 

In previous interviews and essays, you’ve spoken on these songs. Has the narrative has changed at all with the new sequence?

“The concentration for this set-list was to show chronology and progress over a length of time. I wanted to hear 2006 through 2016. These songs have helped to tell my story for so long, and they have defined my artistry. They needed to be cradled together as one story the same way that I was introduced to them. There are four smaller sets within the entire playlist. The first set is a ‘coming of age’ tale, and also renders spiritual exploration in astrotheology. In the second set, Christianity becomes more prominent in the work, though that theme is throughout. The spiritual scope becomes narrow with more Biblical perspective. Thirdly, I talk a lot about accepting who you are as an individual; and lastly, depravity is recognized, and Jesus becomes the only means of salvation.”

Though professing to be a Christian, you talk about dealing with homosexuality.  Wouldn’t those seem like two conflicting positions?

“They are. W&M is a great place to tackle this idea, however. The songs articulate this better than my spoken word can. My opinions about it have varied over the past ten years, but ultimately I believe the truth stands for itself. The Bible is clear about homosexuality, so I don’t think I have to quote the book to define that position. Part of my goal is to share my experiences with homosexuality and Jesus, so that if there is anyone else in my situation they might be helped or comforted. No one has a good answer right now for people who want to follow the Lord but have this disposition. Most of the solutions come from outside the LGBT community, and I don’t think people respond to that well. I by no means claim to have the answer, but I think I have something to offer.”

How that’s been received?

“I’ve definitely gotten hate mail. It’s a bit of a hot topic these days, and the LGBT community is gaining a lot of ground politically. It’s difficult to state your case whenever it goes against an entire people group who are seeking social reform in the exact opposite direction you’re going in. You’re basically a defector or a traitor.”  

You mention That You Are Mindful of Him, which was released earlier this year. What kind of response did you get from your listeners?

“The record has been an absolute blessing to my musical career. I feel like I gained a lot of listenership because of it. I’ve said it many times before, music about the Gospel is ultimately why I do what I do; I really wanted to do a worship set, and concentrate on more obscure songs; many seem to have taken a liking to it. TYAMOH allowed for me to go back into the studio for W&M, and do all the remastering. With new listenership, I thought the timing was right to reintroduce these songs. I feel like Gospel artists are often looked at as if they are morally perfect;  W&M really levels the playing field, and promotes transparency to those listening to my story.”

What happens next for This Intangible Existence?

“I’ve been training with different piano techniques, and playing songs that are out of the norm for my musical vocabulary. I’m really looking to expand my abilities as a musician, and hopefully, my writing will reflect that, as well as my recordings. I’m sure I’m going back into the studio in the earlier part of 2017, but I’m not sure what the result will be. Traditionally I’ve done live set recording, but I would like to branch into more layered productions and create a higher quality product that focuses on one song at a time, rather than a whole set of them. This would leave the door open for later collaboration with other artists.

Words & Music, the new compilation record by This Intangible Existence is now available on iTunes, Google Play, and Spotify, as well as a complete catalog of covers, worship music, and other original works.

 

 

 

Love Songs and the Like

My perspective of music changes with every passing year. The older I get the more my understanding of this gift grows deeper: elaborating on the unseen realm that the music exists in.

My latest thoughts today are about Love Songs, and songs that specify a commentary about, or that conversation towards another human. Whether in love or admiration, I'm beginning to find love songs some what of a waste. 

Maybe it's because I've never really been in love. I've definitely written songs that were for or towards certain people that I care about, but in this season of writing I'm coming to find this practice a waste. 

Almost Idolatrous...

I should go ahead and say it that my music has been God centered in subject matter since I got serious about writing in 2007. I've also been engaged in playing for the church for almost 5 years now. Music has become a tool for me--used to pay homage, and show reverence. Sure, I am still entertained by music, but it's greater purpose, is in an evocation or a worship setting.

So whenever I hear these really good songs that are about someone's lover, I have to ask myself,

"Do you feel that greatly about this person that you would give them such a masterpiece?" 

"Is this person really worthy of receiving this great piece?"

"Is there even a person behind these lyrics and emotions, or is it just a scarecrow that 's used to prop up a good melody and hook?"

I believe the worship setting alleviates these types of questions, but I don't think that every song has to be about God or Jesus to be considered good or relevant, but I guess as the years go by I'm more interested in what's important, eternal, and intangible. 

Love Songs--and the like--seem to just be a frivolous waste. 

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Threads - - - The Belt of Truth

Ephesians 6 referes to the ever common and familiar concept of the armor of God; Ephesians 6:12 - Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand...

14; Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist; | and then, I'm brought to these scriptures of truth stating affirmation and boldness:

Colossians 1:15 - He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning  and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For god was please to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether thing on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross. - Colossian 1:15-21

It even continues further to confirm salvation through the cross; however, for an opening statement of faith I think that this will due. And though this statement is clear in what it means, the Bible or The Word confirms its syndication and it's proof of purchase in Romans  saying:

Romans 1:20 - For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities--his eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse. - Romans 1:20

I like the connection with armor in the bible. Christ is something that we cloak ourselves with: an armor, with his word as his weapon. Ephesians 3 goes on to explain the element of the "inner man" or the "inner being": that which is intangible. I can imagine the human condition being something like hairless monkeys running around an orbital ball in the middle on no where, and  whenever God decided to have hand to hand contact with the mushy meat mammals of Earth, the thing he does is gives us a shell to crawl into - and doesn't call us to fight, but to stand in him

This is the belt of truth -- and what I've come to know of it.

Out of Egypt & Stories in Exodus

In my life and through out my indoctrination I have know very little about the Jewish people, or the linage of Jewish people that led up to Jesus. So with that, Old Testament studies are the topic of discussion. Questions have risen for me early in the text of Exodus as I hear about the life of Moses. Since I've seen the "Prince of Egypt" more often than I've actually read the text my thought process is altered to say the least.

I'm curious of Moses' status in Egypt. I wonder how high in ranks he really was; I'm sure it was low enough that he would see death for killing the Egyptian man--clearly NOT above the law of the land.

I'm also curious of the state of worship in the land of Midian, after he left Egypt. Was Moses worshiping other gods under Jethro, only to encounter the Lord at the bush?

Furthermore, how was he reared in Egypt? The text reads as if he knows who Aaron was---so did he even know he was Jewish?

As wonderful of a movie is think the Prince of Egypt is, IT IS HORRIBLY MISLEADING.

----Not to mention

the whole part of the story where God is about to kill Moses because his son isn't circumcised. What did that look like? and How did they know that was necessary to keep the Lord from taking their life?

The Lord Will Provide

It's one thing to know what the word says in regards to finances, tithes, and seeds; but nothing is better than to take the Lord at his word, and see the first sprouts of the seeds.

The Lord has continuously provided for me.

Malachi 3:10 (AMP)

10 Bring all the tithes (the whole tenth of your income) into the storehouse, that there may be food in My house, and prove Me now by it, says the Lord of hosts, if I will not open the windows of heaven for you and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

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The Reason For Use

 Last night as I was leaving work and going through lists in my mind, I asked the Lord that he would show me something whenever I got home. So, whenever I got home, I turned on Daystar, and listened to Pastors Dollar, Hagee, and someone I'd never seen before named John Paul Jackson.

 At one point in my life I used to think that most television churches were a stretch, or that they lacked credibility; however, over the past few month I've become more and more open to whatever the Lord may say to me, and how he could use the network & television to speak legit words to me.

And he did speak to me:

Song of Solomon 8:6-7 (AMP)

6 Set me like a seal upon your heart, like a seal upon your arm; for love is as strong as death, jealousy is as hard and cruel as Sheol (the place of the dead). Its flashes are flashes of fire, a most vehement flame [the very flame of the Lord]!

7 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can floods drown it. If a man would offer all the goods of his house for love, he would be utterly scorned and despised.

1 Corinthians 14:31 (AMP)

31 For in this way you can give testimony [prophesying and thus interpreting the divine will and purpose] one by one, so that all may be instructed and all may be stimulated and encouraged;

and so...

I watched  a lot of follow up video on the internet of John Paul Jackson. He is what could be considered a modern day prophet. He utilizes the spiritual power of receiving revelation from the Lord, and his ministry is focused on teaching people how to use these powers correctly in the eyes of the Jesus.

He went on to say that this could chocked up to your regular everyday Psychic, but that the difference come from the source. The  origin of a revelation makes it evil or good: either it is from the Lord, or it is a counterfeit from the enemy.

It's very interesting; I have recognized the spiritual nature of receiving art in the mind recently, and how it parallels to mysticism. It's left me to wonder what the implications of possessing such power means in terms of salvation. Typically I thought of it as divination, or something that would keep me from the Glory of the Lord.

Some suspicions have been confirmed, and the next curtain that is to be pulled back to show the next revelation is now clear.

With this being said, I honored the Father with the continuation of this...

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Multiple Things

i don't like you

I hate it whenever there are those people that you just can't stand, but you're in such close quarters with them--particularly those you work with.

Usually these people bring out the worst in me--not that I'm completely showing my ass in these situations, but they bring the most vial of things from my heart

Jeremiah 17:9 (amp)

9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and it is exceedingly perverse and corrupt and severely, mortally sick! Who can know it [perceive, understand, be acquainted with his own heart and mind]?

I have found myself before having conversation in my head with the type of character in questions. I would same something witty, and really stick it to them; then they would cower at my awesomeness, and know that I am the superior male.

My whole life, I have had these types of cosplays in my mind; however, now that I'm in my adult life, I see the degradation that it promotes to my well being.

The heart is indeed a dirty thing--O what can make me clean again? ...Nothing but the blood of Jesus.