I believe that the lump that is under my arm hasn't exactly gotten any bigger, or become more painful; I think that I've just become more aware of it. Though I haven't completely ruled out HIV/AIDS, the more and more that I read about it online I think it may not be that--as much as my father would love for it to be. I have a doctors appointment today to find out what's going on. Most resources online chock it up to a bacterial infection. But we'll see what's going on later.

The other day I felt pretty disconnected from the Father, so whenever I cam home from work, I ran a tub of hot water, and watched the Daystar network. I think it is a wonderful thing to let the Word of God just pour into your home--even if you're not really listening. This day, I was listening. There was a black preacher on, and he was making a point about faith in God. He reference the following:

2 Peter 1:2 (AMP)

2 May grace (God’s favor) and peace (which is [a]perfect well-being, all necessary good, all spiritual prosperity, and [b]freedom from fears and agitating passions and moral conflicts) be multiplied to you in [the full, personal, [c]precise, and correct] knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.

He went on to say that spiritual growth as a Christian is only obtained through the "knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord." Also with this he went on to confirm the standard Christian doctrine that we are not saved by our action, but by faith.

In the set up of his teaching he also brought out the concept of "on Earth, as it is in Heaven."

Matthew 6:10 (AMP)

10 Your kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

The picture that he painted was this; as Christians on Earth we are to rejoice as we walk in faith through the Holy Spirit. As Christ is in Heaven--Glorified as God--we are to be confident in the trials that are given to us. The references were very on point to my life as he said things like, "You shouldn't be depressed because Christ isn't depressed in heaven." He also made a reference to a lump saying, "Don't worry about a lump on Earth, because Jesus isn't worried about a lump in Heaven." I found my lump two days later.

I can't help but believe that there is a greater narrative be told.