It's a very cryptic lyric for the homosexual survivor of a boyfriends suicide--"I'd give up forever to touch you..." I watched the funeral services for my deceased friend/lover; I remember feeling like I didn't know the person that they were presenting. Which very well could be; I only knew Lester that last three years of his life. "Iris" from the Goo Goo Dolls was one of the many songs that Lester kept on repeat; He didn't consume music at a very fast rate. The song is sad enough as it is without any external circumstances rendering it so. The line that says, "I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand." I wonder if Lester related with that line specifically. It one of those things that makes you think to yourself, "Were you digging this song because you were going to kill yourself?" It's another one of those questions about this whole situation that will never be answered.