I saw him again. What was the substance?
I was shown that I put other men in between me and the unresolved emotions I have for nameless; I want him sexually, so I'm willing to reach out to anyone to fulfill my desire.
But Demons come in many different sizes, and have the ability to shape shift; and, with being shifted into a fine blue eyed, blond haired, Aryan beauty, it's easy to fall for anything.
And so fall I did.